Words Of My Feelings

How to put into wordsWhat I am feelingIt is like there isA clogged drainNothing is flowing.It is like there isA dam blocking The words areBogged down.Admitting someOf my feelingsMight not be pleasant._ Veda:One girl text him saying she miss him with heart eyes emoji.(21 May 2019) Veda:And he is constantly texting a bunch of girls.(21 May 2019) Veda:He [...]
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Nova:
And if not that I feel like my eating disorder will ruin this if I ever open up or I guess one day he's bound to find out.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
I feel like even though how nice he was he's gonna turn out to be controlling and aggresive with me.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
I feel like he has some alterior motive.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
I dont think until now I've realized that I find it hard to trust males.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
I just don't understand how he could like me when he doesn't know who I am.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
We are going to hang out more because I feel like I should stop being so uptight about it.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
I just don't know how to respond because nobody really shows me affection, even family.I feel like an idiot if I let my emotions out and lowkey judge when people pour them out on me.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
But now we've been texting and he flirts with me a lot.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
It was fun at first with that element of mystery wondering whether he was into me too.
(21 May 2019)

Nova:
We got to know all the basic things about each other but I do not feel comfortable to open up about my struggles and he seems like a really happy person.
(21 May 2019)