Oh the luxury of showering

At the risk of scaring away men, I showered for the first time since Sunday morning today… and I never thought a shower could be better solo than it felt to scrub off four days of funk. But having d_ Dan:Edited to add: I had sex Monday night.(4 August 2018) Dan:On Tuesday, I noticed light spotting after [...]
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Kristie:
I hope people reading this could understand how traumatizing having no childhood, no love from parents, abused from parents could be traumatizing.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
They pretend to raise their child normally and little freely but none of the few friend they have (from work and family) were treated like I did.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
I was actually a shy person and not a brave person(at young age) so all she did was making me think that I cannot do anything successfully and alone.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
I was abused by my mom severely as a child.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
The only happy memory I have as a child is watching cartoon on TV.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
My mother has minor disabilities in her face that was kind of abnormally made by her parents and my dad was a saleman that moved 5 times during my childhood and now work at home full time doing stock trading.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
First is family, second is my culture and third is for justice.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
I am considering suicide as my priority option if they really force me to go despite my own will because of number of reasons.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
My parents are forcing me to go but I am nor ready or wish to go to army right now.
(1 August 2018)

Kristie:
But I think I can postpone 1 more year.
(1 August 2018)