The Hard Part About This Month…

Tomorrow will be the fifth anniversary of the passing of W. The pain lessens but it is still always there. It is there in music and in other things. Today it felt like someone was messing with my pony_ Elisha:He talks about me at work and yesterday a female coworker asked him if she could ask [...]
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Dennise:
I asked if she felt suicidal, she said no.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
She also told me she just doesn't want to deal with everything that comes with a relationship, texting calling, hanging out even though she knows she would want to.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
I asked if her if she felt dead inside and she replied yes.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
Apart from that she's going to school for Respiratory Therapy which is A LOT of stress.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
She has no drive to do anything and just wants to exist.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
She told me she doesn't want to do anything but lay down in her bed, watch tv and be alone.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
We had a talk in her car at the park 5 days later as to when and where she stopped feeling for me.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
She also said it has something to do with us not doing anything with each other sexually because of her condition(possibly endometriosis, hasn't been diagnosed yet). She has lots of pain in her feminine parts with or without sex.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
She came out telling me that the last month she just felt like the spark is gone and she lost the lust for me she once had.
(12 December 2017)

Dennise:
I asked to to be upright honest with me and she shook her head no.
(12 December 2017)