Just a broken human, who cant seem to form bonds with people

I dont understand why, but I fail at being a human. I am kind to everyone until given a reason not to be. For some reason no one will let me into their life, I cant form bonds with other people. Not even just as friends. I really dread living completely alone in this world [...]
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Caroyln:
Mi novio me oculta algo?
(30 December 2016)

Yer:
My girlfriend allowed me to go through her phone yesterday. I went though her messages and saw something that bothered me. (Read)?
(30 December 2016)

Yer:
She explained everything and said it's fine and we are all good but I still feel guilty that I went through her messages and she might be hiding that she is actually angry with me for doing so.
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
Help me, I am destroyed. I know it was my entire fault and that I am terrible but my parents caught me smoking. They found my cigarette pack?
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
My dad is the most disappointed, my mom started crying, it kills me inside.
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
They won't talk to me now, what can I do for us to get on good terms?
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
Now I realised that I have been behaving badly.
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
They didn't use violence or anything, their anger and disbelief just made me feel like the last person on earth.
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
I really don't know what to do, they are so disappointed at me and would never look at me the same.
(30 December 2016)

Elease:
I didn't even shed a year but I am devastated.
(30 December 2016)